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Aug. 12th, 2005 @ 02:46 am update
aSalamu 'alaikoom

subhan Allah! I had written a crazy long post and then stupidly the AC for my laptop went out. I still feel somewhat content, like it felt good writing it not, it didnt' really matter that no one read them. i guess those words were not meant to be read by the world

I guess i wont write out what is now gone but instead will continue to the next topic i would have...

Of the people who come into your life and stay.
so alhamdulillah my undergrad career at stony is over. During the past four years i've come to know pretty much all the brothers in stony brook and they all pretty much know me. So as i sit and reflect about the tons of brothers who've i've seen graduate as well as the tons who have seen me graduate, i think about the people who actually come into your life and stay. I'm talking about the best friends and family.

Growing up, my twin uncles (who were actually no more than 2 years older than me) had been pretty much my best friends. They were really cool and very understanding at every point in my life. When i was caught up in the world of video games and comics, they were right next to me buying the games and talking about the comics. They helped me get on track with computers, which is basically my career now, and recently when i was getting into the deen they too supported me and helped me out greatly. We would go to jummu'ahs in the city together, help out at msa events, go attend classes in Westchester, drive to jersey for a conference and even go to virginia for one as well. These guys also went to stony brook with me and were there for quite some years. Everyone got to know them very well, however when they were graduating, i noticed that most of these guys wouldn't see the twins again, but I on the other hand was fortunate enough to actually be related to them, and also live about 4 minutes away from them as well. I also thought about all the brothers who i know and i couldn't pick out anyone else other than these two guys to know and be with until the end of my life. Subhan Allah it's amazing the way Allah, 'subhanna wa ta 'alla, sets up your life and brings in the right people into your life, therby blessing it and making your stay on this desolate earth enjoyable.

Other than these guys, there are a lot of awesome brothers whom i've gotten the chance to become closer with and alhamdulillah i'm glad these guys are still in my life and insha Allah will continue to be.

alright thats about it, just to sum up the stuff that was deleted, i got ths job in jersey where i gotta pretty much wake up at around 5 am in order to get there on time. though some ppl might not like this, i am very happy, this restricted schedule will discipline me and also force me to sleep early and to arise early, insha Allah ta 'alla. Also the long commute will give me the opportunity to read some books, insha Allah.

alright thats about it, jummu'ah mubarak to all. Go read surah kahf, number 18, insha Allah ta 'alla
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BlackHeart
Jul. 26th, 2005 @ 06:19 pm (no subject)

Quotes taken from this week's Time:

 

"President Bush announced that he has nominated Judge John Roberts to the court.  When asked why, Bush said he picked Roberts because he was one of the finest legal minds since Matlock" - Conan O'Brien

 

"President Bush said the job of the Supreme Court is extremely important, because as you know these are the people who choose the President of the United States" - Jay Leno

 

=D

 

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Jul. 19th, 2005 @ 11:01 pm Rihla to the City of the Messenger of Allah, 'azza wa jal
aSalamu 'alaikoom to all

I'm not sure how many of you have heard about this program called 'deen intensives'. Basically they are programs that last anywhere from a weekend to a month where traditional islamic scholars give out some sort of specific lesson(s) and they are also available to you throughout the weekend/week/month. One of the longer ones is the annual Rihla. Usually this deen intensive takes place in Dar al Islam, a place enclosed off in New Mexico. Beautiful scholars such as Shaykh Hamza Yusuf, Shaykh Habib al Jifri, and even Shaykh Mohammad al Yaqoubi teach at these deen intensives.

This year there was a special Rihla, this one is takin place in no other than the city of our Prophet, sal Allahu 'alayhi waSalam: Madina the Luminous. Hundreds have applied and i believe only about 150 were accepted. However alhamdulillah one (or some?) attendees have started up a blog, here is the site:
http://q-rihla.blogspot.com/

check it out insha Allah

Also if you want more information on Deen Intensives, check out
http://www.deen-intensive.com/

waSalamu 'alaikoom
x-posted to a bunch of communities
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BlackHeart
Jul. 9th, 2005 @ 01:26 pm (no subject)
Asalamu 'alaikoom to all

Here's an update:

Theres this new site up:
www.sunnitorrents.com
It's a site that provides a medium for users to share islamic multimedia files, including videos of Salatul Taraweeh from Mecca, Quranic Recitation mp3s, and even audio from shaykh Abdal Hakim Murad. Check it out, it uses bit torrent medium which means you download the file from the people who have it and at teh same time give out whatever portion of the file that you downloaded so far, so in theory the more ppl who know about it, the faster and efficient the sharing!

I think many of you know who shaykh Hamza Yusuf Hanson is, he is one of my favorite contemporary muslims scholars for many reasons. Well he has two new free to download audio on www.zaytuna.org, here is their multimedia page:
http://www.zaytuna.org/multimedia.asp
definetely check them out insha Allah.

As many of you may know London was attacked a couple of days ago, I would suggest that we just pray for all those affected as well as pray for their families.
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Jul. 1st, 2005 @ 11:25 pm aight
aight, aSalamu 'alaikoom to allz

insha Allah i will be officially done w/ my undergraduate career in about one week! insha Allah everyone PLEASSSSSSSSE make du'a (nonmuslims: put out a prayer) that everything for me finally gets finisssssssssssssshed!!!! I mean dont' get me wrong, i am deeply in love with stony brook, but my time there is done.

aight so anyway i've been taking it pretty easy these past couple of weeks anyway, actually i've been taking it easy for the past four years, lol, damn i'm such a horrible student...

So i've been watching quite a number of movies lately so i just wanted to make some remarks about a couple .... WARNING THERE WILL BE SPOILERS SO IF YOU HAVEN'T WATCHED ONE OF THESE MOVIES, DONT READ THIS POST OR THAT PARTICULAR SECTION!!!!!!!Collapse )

aiiiiiiiiiiiiight
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Jun. 17th, 2005 @ 11:07 pm update en ma vie
It's been pretty long since i've actually posted something of substance, pretty strange this whole LJ thing. I've had for less than a year, at times i'll go close to a month w/o updating and other times i'll update like 4 times a week .... pretty strange. I guess I'm some what self-conscious of who my audience is, i think sometimes i'm kinda worried of the content of my posts and the intentions behind them, but oh wells, here we go....

I've been pretty down for the past couple of months, i mean really down. I'm not quite sure what the main cause of it all was but it was affecting my entire life including my deen, but alhamdulillah i've been somewhat improving over these past few weeks, especially in the past few days, i just hope I can continue to improve.

I just got back from 'isha jammat. I prayed next to a really old guy. He has grandkids, so i'm guessing he's over 60 or 70. As he was going into sujjud, i remembered somewhere reading about how Merciful God is to old people, especially those who are pious and have been throughout their lives. I also noticed the simplicity of his dress, his long beard and his quiet manners. And i thought, wow, God definetely gave this man some sort of blessed station. Here he is in his old age, leading a very simple life, following the best he can of the Sunnah and engaging in the worship of his Creator to whom he'll soon be returning, and i coudln't help but think just that, that he will return to God very soon, that he soon will pass away from this dunya and be faced with the Reality from which he came from. And i then couldn't help but think that I too will be facing this same passage and there is no guarantee that the old man will go through his before I go through mine. Think about it, i'm pretty much nearing the apex of my life, but still i can be returned back to God at any moment. As can anyone. So many of my friends and fellow graduates are making so many elaborate plans, getting ready for med school, looking for jobs, interviewing, going off to other lands and states, but nothing guarantees that they'll make it there. I mean don't get me wrong, i'm not being nihilistic and i fully support each and every one of their plans but i'm just amazed at the ultimate power and the final word that God has.

hmmm glad to have gotten that off my chest and out of my head. I still got tons of work to do. GOt two projects to do and three summer courses to be done. insha Allah they will all pass, all of this will eventually......

well, aSalamu 'alaikoom
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BlackHeart
Jun. 7th, 2005 @ 11:28 pm (no subject)
a lot has happened over the past few weeks, but i'm not comfortable w/ lj that much anymore, but anyway one thing i guess i can share, and something that's really big is that ....


I miss Masoooooooooooooooood =**(
(ihsan4life)
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BlackHeart
May. 20th, 2005 @ 01:05 am (no subject)
damn

its over

subhan Allah
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BlackHeart
May. 18th, 2005 @ 01:10 am This too shall end
Current Level of Iman: alhamdulillah, i'm aiiight
Current Book(s): booooooooooook none =(
A lil more than 12 hours until my last final and it's actually starting to hit me: I'll be graduating, i'll finally be leaving Stony Brook Univ. So how exactly am i feeling? excited? sad? apathetic? I really don't know. I'm just feeling whatever, i guess i'm trying not to think about it.

One emotion that i'm definetely feeling is regret. Regret of being an average student, regret of having only a handful of As, regret of giving priority to hanging out these past four years over studying, regret of not being more adamant in my search for a job. I know having regret usually isn't very productive (unless one actually learns from the regret and works not to feel it), but i just can't help it. The only thing that gives me comfort is that somehow i know that this was meant for me and i trust in God that something better is at hand. My grades, my jobless state, this regretful point in my life, all of it is all because of my self and the poor choices i've made, but i have faith in God that He has better things in store for me, though they may not be apparent or even come in this life.

One thing i have noticed is that this recent apathetic state has also affected my deen, and i am really going back to just pleasing my nafs. I've been growing more and more distant from God and it is I who is walking away from Him and though He will always turn up right on my path, it will be I who turns around yet again. I honestly cannot wait for the semester to end and for me to graduate. I need to get out of this environment which has made me so spiritually lax. I can't wait to get back home and spend my late nights the way i used to. I want to start reading Qur'an again, i want to start memorized Qur'an again, i want to start reading up on the tons of books i have and the tons of books that interest me.

Well back to the issue of finals .... you know over the years i've come to realize one thing, that is that all things pass, everything. There is no better time that one realizes this other than during finals. Cuz literally people are so STRESSED over finals, it's nuts. People will stay up all night for days on end to study and study and study, but then right there during the 2.5 hours they have for the final, they don't remember any of that time spent, even if they totally bomb the final they feel relieved because it's over, it's finally over, it's quite amazing, cuz literally people are surprised that they're still alive sometimes. FInals totally consume one's life and stress ppl to the point that they think they're gonna die. And no kidding, some ppl just can't stand that one moment of apprehension and commit suicide (there are numerous cases of college students committing suicide), pretty sad. I've come to realize that 'hey no matter what happens i'm still alive after that test' and i guess it's helped me prepare for the finals that have came around this year. For instace the engineering test i had today, i studied for it for less than 2 hours cuz this brother who knew the material basically taught it all to me. I wasn't stressed for that test at all. and right now i'm going to just spend the next 6 - 8 hours (not counting the 2-3 hour nap) to study for this chem test.

Disclaimer: If you are still an undergrad, do NOT follow my methods =] Study your butt off for your finals
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BlackHeart
May. 15th, 2005 @ 01:57 am (no subject)

Tarique Jawed is the man!!

 

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http://www.fzux.net/tjawed/photos/Galleries/sixflags/slides/DSCN3229.html

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